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Friday, July 08, 2005 8:57 PM
I have thought about it... actually, a lot.
Things didn't changed today. We still are both passive to each other. No hi's.. no hello's, no smiles.. nothing...
And I guess, if I'll let my common sense run, it would tell me that he's just not interested. Ewan ko pero I felt na napilitan lang talaga cya before dhil sa lahat ng pang-aasar ng tao. And now, maybe he just got fed up. I hated it before when they teased us non-stop but ironically, the worse I feel now that everything stopped. Nothing can be more painful than when a person you consider as someone... just passes you by, as if you're a thin air. It hurts. Unfortunately, that's what's happening.
I'm not mad at him. I'm not mad at anyone. It just sucks that it's turning out just like what happened between me and the junior guy. Before I know it, it would be as if we don't know each other. Sana naman di mangyari un.
U know what I realized today? What I'm feeling for him is more than just an infatuation. I guess, when it starts to hurt then that's something else right?
But u know wat? I don't care if he doesn't talk to me. I don't care if he doesn't call. I don't care if he even forgets me [uy.. huwag namang ganyan]... I don't care if he doesn't even like me. All I know is I like him. I do. And so far right now, nothing will change that. If things will get better, then I'm happy. If it won't, then I'll figure something out for myself.
It's all part of liking or loving someone. It's not always that the other person will feel the same. Sometimes you have to take a risk.. you have to get hurt. But I guess, I've been hurt many times, do I deserve another one? I don't know. I prayed for someone to come. He came eh.
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Im still working on few details. :)
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