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Tuesday, July 26, 2005 7:02 PM
so... bukas na ang fudsale... sa wakas!!!! after how many times of rescheduling.... hehe...
uuummm.... i've already given mommy lai d gift... hopefully, everything goes as planned...
uuurrrggghhh... i don't want tomorrow to come... aalis sya for 3 days... hhmmm... but i guess.. sa sobrang pagkapreoccupied ko.. 3 days would be nothing... b4 i knew it.. battalion na at dadating na cla...
well... got to go...
test for tom: MATH, PHYSICS, ENGLISH[kung present na c gumban!!].. wait.. 3 major subjects na yan ah... tpos CL pa.. hehe..
i'm out!
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Saturday, July 23, 2005 10:09 PM
i went to the alumni homecoming..
...which if i may say so, turned out to be one big picture-taking moment...
hehe... everyone looked decent.. i wore my beige dress... i didn't wear pink nor a skirt and white blouse ensemble coz i knew almost every girl would be wearing that.
i arrive around 11.30am.. went to lunch at KFC with tulungin peeps.. and some sunurin.. went back to school.. got to the audi... saw the people I wanted to see... smiled.. giggled.. [lam nyo na kung bakit].. watched the program... made kulit with Mr. Mangulabnan... picture taking.. picture taking.. picture taking.. talk.. laugh.. freeze... laugh...
i wondered what would we look like after 25 years... actually what would I be after 25 years.. i can't really picture myself... i guess it's one thing i wouldn;t like to picture out... it's cute to see all those faces of the ladies from batch '80 light up as they see their batchmates... i hope we'd be like that...
then off to dinner at the gym... i love my barkada talaga... we all sat together.. but we never really talked to each other.. i was trying to find my crush... samala was with clarence.. karla and hazel got thier own things.. ten was videoing someone... but we're together....
then there was a raffle... i joined but didn't win... sayang P50.00 ko.. I swear.. dinoktor yun.... lahat ng major promise.. sa kani-kanila lang...nabawasan pa tuloy pambili ko ng gift.. pero okay lang...
tomorrow is another day....
i'll be finishing all my assignments tomorrow...
and hopefully on monday, i'll get to take the whole day for myself
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Friday, July 22, 2005 9:05 PM
i haven't written anythin yet about my retreat... kakagaling lang ng tulungin sa retreat nila eh... i've been really busy, and i mean really BBBBBUUUUUSSSSSSSYYYY!
non-stop requirements are driving me nuts...
top things i loved about my retreat
top # 5 - mrs. wilma sediego - ipagdasal nyo na cya ang chaperon ng class nyo! promise! hindi cya nananaway.. nagagalit or nagababantay man lang...deh.. di naman...pero sometimes you wouldn't even feel that she's there. she slept earlier and woke up later than us. hehe.. so lahat ng kalokohan nyo.. LUSOT!
top # 4 - BUKO TART!!- if i had more money i would have bought 5 boxes of it... pero mas masarap ata ung mango tart.. cno man magreretreat.. papabili ako ulit..
top # 3 - labyrinth - i went into d labyrinth twice. one was at night with all my classmates. sana lang hindi malabo ang mata ko. nagblack-out nga mata ko for about point something seconds. you're only guide will be a candle... but it was fun!
top # 2 - the weather - afternoons are usually warm.. but at nights and early dawn, it cud get a bit cold. it's nice to take morning strolls. take time for yourself and sit on the swing... un nga lang madaming insects... kaya nasisira ang pagkasenti ko! joke!!! di ko ginawa un...
1. the break - 3 days away from the hussles of school.. no assignments.. no pollution.. no traffic noise.. no worries. Man, it was amazing. It made me wish that everyday was just like that. I got to spend time with my friends. All throughout the retreat, I was with Rizza, Kten, Nads, Anna and Cresta. Evryday we wud sit together during meals. We always stay in one room. At night we would all cuddle together in one bed.. even if it's too sikip.
Bottom line... bitin ung retreat! hehe...
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Saturday, July 09, 2005 6:13 PM
It's a weekend!
I woke up with very sore shoulder-slash-chest muscles. I guess, because of the push-ups yesterday. I can't even lift it much but it'll pass in a few days.. hopefully :)
I'm starting to make "retreat" letters for my classmates. I'm sooo excited for my retreat. 3 days not being at home, how much better can it get? hhhmmm.. wait.. that actually sucks.. no TV.. no radio.. no cellphone.. no telebabad.. and not being able to see my crush... WHOA! That really sucks. Then again... this comes only once. There'll be no assignments, no Ms. Gumban and Pitpitan to put up with.. hehehe...
I'm looking forward to my retreat letters.. Sana may magbigay.. lalo na cya[asus!!!] Hahaha.. I juz hope he'll keep his promise.
Nadine S., Kristen, Rizza and Cresta will be coming over here tomorrow. We'll be working on our powerpoint presentation. I haven't told my dad about it. Surprise ko na lang sa kanya bukas. Hehehe.
Well.. I guess that's all 4 now. I'm doing my homework in physics. Got to finish this first.
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Friday, July 08, 2005 8:57 PM
I have thought about it... actually, a lot.
Things didn't changed today. We still are both passive to each other. No hi's.. no hello's, no smiles.. nothing...
And I guess, if I'll let my common sense run, it would tell me that he's just not interested. Ewan ko pero I felt na napilitan lang talaga cya before dhil sa lahat ng pang-aasar ng tao. And now, maybe he just got fed up. I hated it before when they teased us non-stop but ironically, the worse I feel now that everything stopped. Nothing can be more painful than when a person you consider as someone... just passes you by, as if you're a thin air. It hurts. Unfortunately, that's what's happening.
I'm not mad at him. I'm not mad at anyone. It just sucks that it's turning out just like what happened between me and the junior guy. Before I know it, it would be as if we don't know each other. Sana naman di mangyari un.
U know what I realized today? What I'm feeling for him is more than just an infatuation. I guess, when it starts to hurt then that's something else right?
But u know wat? I don't care if he doesn't talk to me. I don't care if he doesn't call. I don't care if he even forgets me [uy.. huwag namang ganyan]... I don't care if he doesn't even like me. All I know is I like him. I do. And so far right now, nothing will change that. If things will get better, then I'm happy. If it won't, then I'll figure something out for myself.
It's all part of liking or loving someone. It's not always that the other person will feel the same. Sometimes you have to take a risk.. you have to get hurt. But I guess, I've been hurt many times, do I deserve another one? I don't know. I prayed for someone to come. He came eh.
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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Thursday, July 07, 2005 6:39 PM
Hahaha.. I promised I would never cry pero kanina, ewan ko ba, I just did. I guess, my heart just gave up.
I was at the quad with Raissa when his barkada, including him, passed in front of us. He didn't even bother to say anything. I know it's quite low, but if you're on my position, you'll get hurt too. We talk comfortably on the phone but never did he even try approach me in school. Very seldom does he say hi. Was he just shy? I don't think so.
Last Monday, I gave myself a deadline.. that if on this week, nothing happens, I'll give this up. I'll give him up. I wouldn't want to wait or hope on something that will never come.
What frigthens me most is that tomorrow is the last day.
Kristen told me that if I have feelings for him.. and if that feeling is real.. it doesn't necessarily mean that he should feel the same for me. I should just be happy liking him.
_rockiztangKIKAY_
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